Colorless Crayons

Crayons seem to have every color but black and white.

Where are they?

Am I not seeing them and that is it? 

I don’t like colors.

Colors expose the emotions that you wouldn’t see in black and white. 

I only remember my past in shades of grey because I would have gone emotionally insane in color. 

When I was a child, I never cared about my hair or clothes or even who I was. 

So when my teacher asks of me to pick a colorful crayon, I couldn’t.

I want to confess… I am not a crayon expert.

So I grabbed a black crayon.

My teacher looks at me in disappointment.

Seems as though she said I lost my creativity. 

Where did I go WRONG to lose my creativity?

Was it because I picked a black crayon?

I became so NUMB.

Trying to become the person that others wanted me to be, I gave it up.

I picked the black crayon...

and I don't regret it.