Happy Birthday Mom, sorry that it sucked

I understand.

Dad. I understand.

I understand that things don’t go as planned.

I also understand that mom; you are the best mother on the face of this planet.

And mom; you should be praised for at least two days of the year if not every day of every year.

No one should say otherwise.

Dad.

Dad. Look at me.

I have had a terrible life of not having you in it.

And I need you now.

Mom needs you now and I understand.

And I hear you constantly say that you ‘tried’ and you ‘tried’, but you just need to try a little harder.

Go ahead and forget what I have just said.

Say that, “it won’t matter much longer because I’ll be gone before you know it.”

Huh.

Say to me, “Shorty, don’t worry”

But every day I worry of waking up to this life that I am living in.

By the end we just act normal, behaving like nothing happened.

Lets just finish the birthday cake and continue on with our lives.

Well.

Sorry but I just can’t do this.

Dad. I can’t do this.

Dad. I can’t deal with this and mom is crying several of the many days of her life.

And I; I am just waiting for you to say, “it won’t matter much longer” because one day you’ll be gone, and I will not have a thought cross my mind of feeling sad for you.