To: Light Soul But Heavy Mind

This is not an obituary but it is just a letter found on a sunday after noon.

It has come to a point now that I have taken life into my hands.
There is nothing that my parents can do to help me now.
These past years I have seen people change & realized I have changed too.
I came to be honest with others but not with my family.
Sometimes I think that is best for them because I worry about hurting them.
I worry about my dad because I might not see him again when I leave for my mission.
So I took it into my own hands & changed how I lived.
I choose to be someone I am not yet.
So I remember the word trust & what it means.

Tossed & thrown between everything.
Life seems to be more complex than writing this goodbye letter.
Now dishes need to be done but right now everyone sits at the dinner table in silence.
We all have felt the burden of sore muscles & worn minds.
I miss these simple moments because soon it will be gone.
I will be 5,707.59miles away in less than two months.
I can't forget the smiles that brightened my day.
It is the joy that is remembered.
Graduation has never come closer than before & I now realize faces will fade from my memory soon after this.
I will always remember the hammock hangouts & run away lunches.
Now we will meet once again to say goodbye as we walk across the stage.
We say hello to our future when we take our first step out into the new world.
So I remember the people who changed me, because without them I wouldn't be the person that I am today.
I just want you to know that this is a just a see you later letter & that there is plenty more to see in our lives.
& if I do see you again it will be worth it to talk to you.

-Sincerely Brenden Gajdos

Summer of 2015

In the summer of 2015 the wind was in my hair & all I needed was a blue Ipod Nano.
I took the risk of wearing no helmet & protection.
Just a pair of vans, corduroy shorts, & sun glasses.
I biked all day through the scars in the mountains.
I didn't want to stop, because I was afraid that my past would catch me.
Music explained my life & what I was pushing for.
As loud as I could bare, the noise of the world could not touch me.
It comes to a point that the sun sets & I had to come back to reality.
Only because I have forgotten my dreams a long time ago.
But I never stopped in my heart to become someone better than the old man.
Like paradise is on the other side of the sunset I don't lose hope.
Because one day I will be able to get away from my past.
With a worn blue ipod nano I still listen to the music that keeps me going.
Because in the summer of 2015 I lost my past & found my future.

Thanks I guess

Thank you pair of pants.
Even though you are not a pair you still keep my hairy legs warm.

Thank you orange.
Even though you don't rhyme with anything but door hinge you still taste sweet.

Thank you strawberries.
Even though you stained my favorite white button up shirt.
It is a nice shade of red.

Thank you facial hair.
You keep my face warm but I don't want to look like a pedophile.

Thank you Dictionary for helping me to understand certain words that I don't know.
But I still can't find those words because I don't know how to spell them.

Thank you Nelson.
Even though I forget where I am you remind me I am in Creative Writing.